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March 30, 2012

If Nothing Ever Changed, There Would Be No Butterflies

Filed under: Things On Writing — Gina Lawless @ 4:26 pm
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I used to think of change as the enemy of my time and energy. Not too long ago, I had come to the realization that I was a methodical maniac, that anything disrupting my routine was hazardous to my health and well-being. I would stress so vigorously over the simplest decisions that by the end of the day, I was exhausted.

I needed to look upon change as a good thing. Things will always change for which we have no control. But, it’s how we use those changes to better ourselves.

Because I am the biggest introvert in the free world, it held me back from me pursuing getting my books published through a publishing house. I was constantly thinking, ‘What if I do get published? There will be a huge change in my life for which I am not prepared.’ I didn’t want my life to change.

I did get a letter of interest for Harbinger of the Light, but after the initial joy and adrenaline wore off, that cold realization crept in telling me that if they accepted my manuscript, everything that I knew would change. It woke me in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. Looking back, I really think I sabotaged myself.

Then, along comes Indie Publishing, like an introvert’s dream come true. I wouldn’t have to do book signings, or speaking engagements…unless, of course, I wanted to. I wouldn’t have to change my manuscript to please an editor. It would be completely up to me how I marketed my books, thanks to Tech Gods.



  1. I adore the name of this post; it’s beautiful. I also struggle with some of the things you mentioned here although not to the same degree (I don’t think). It’s awesome that you found something that works for you! Write always~

    Comment by By The Hilt — April 21, 2012 @ 7:25 pm | Reply

    • Thanks for that, and it’s good to know I’m not the only maniac out here. I read your post on “Why I Write”. Very true…trying to find an answer to why we write. It’s like asking someone, what does love mean? Because it fills us with purpose? Because we have the need? It’s in our souls? Who knows, but the writing muses!

      Comment by ginaray — April 21, 2012 @ 7:59 pm | Reply

      • Yeah, I have a BA in Philosophy, so that’s exactly the kind of question I like to ask. Just because the answer is (possibly) unknowable, doesn’t mean we shouldn’t ask and try to figure it out anyways!

        And I think all writers are at least a little crazy. Possibly all people. Personally, I think someone perfectly sane would be boring. 😉

        Comment by By The Hilt — April 21, 2012 @ 8:03 pm

      • I think we know why John Steinbeck drank when he wrote!

        Comment by ginaray — April 21, 2012 @ 8:42 pm

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